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Okay, so my best friend of 8 years and another friend of ours are hanging out at his place, he wants to get drunk and have a "Party" because its the weekend and feels like we should just act our age for once.

I absolutely hate drinking, tastes awful, makes people awful. Well so did our friend, whom we shall refer to as "M"
We both decided that we would try our best to get the best friend to puke, so that he'd have a miserable time, and never drink again. (Because he never drinks, its so out of character. I swear he just does this so that he can look at himself as cool.)

Drinks roll out around 8, M stops at around 10-ish, and starts faking his shots. I stop at 11 and follow his lead. We both start coaxing our friend to keep up with us, and drink he does.

Fast forward to 2am, and our friend is leaned up against the wall, moaning and groaning, and drunkenly slurring how he's got to puke. M and I take pics and record the moaning, (for the lol's right?) when he bolts for the bathroom and lets out this atrocious retching. 

Mission Accomplished right? 

Wrong.

M can't listen to the sweet sounds of vomit, and pukes all over himself (and me) and what was supposed to be a well planned out event quickly turned into a clusterfuck. The story ended with our friend passing out in the bathroom, M driving home at 4, and myself walking (with no shoes) all the way back to my place.

Morale of the story: I f***ing hate alcohol.

 

In my personal opinion, they make a person weak, instead of depending on themselves, and working to build a better tommorrow, the leave it up to an imaginary power. Why?

Are they truly so delusional that they believe that a "Greater Power" will save them from all of their problems?

Their hypocrisy is another bother to me. Especially regarding suicide, where the average remark is:
 "Its a sin, and they didn't have the Lord's power with them. Suicide is for the weak." etc etc
Really?

You say only the weak turn to suicide, but I say only the weak turn to religion
That hopelessness that comes in, the unbearable, crushing feelings of hopelessness, and they have the audacity to declare a victim of suicide as weak?

Pathetic.

Religious people have those same feelings, except instead of suicide, they stare at a piece of wood and beg for help. Now -that- is true weakness.

Religion and Faith breed Zealotry, Hate, and Ignorance.

Note: If anyone seriously reads these, please note that most, if not all religion related blogs of mine are written with a jaded view, and I hope that you don't take these seriously as an attack on you personally, These are personal thoughts and opinions of mine.

What is insanity?
What seperates a sane man from an insane one?

Who sets those boundaries? What makes those boundaries right?

If we accept insanity, does it enlighten us? Or is insanity an obstacle, sucking wise men in?
Our reality is based on our perceptions, and our ability to percieve. This doesn't make our perception the truth, because each of us can percieve things differently, so, what is reality?

Perhaps insanity is just another perception of reality

Perhaps we're all insane, and unable to grasp sanity..

When I think about my little brother, three words come to mind; Weak, Shallow, and Stupid.
As we've grown up, and became the people we are today, I realized that I truly dislike my brother. He reminds me everything I hate inside people, we may look alike, but aside from that we are polar opposites.

I wonder what made him to be so different and weak. He was never a strong kid, neither mentally or physically, and his lack of knowledge is depressing when compared to the average of his age. However, his intelligence isn't the thing I hate the most, its his morals, his lack of discipline, and how he acts around people. He reminds me of a "Yes-Man" who will do whatever in order to gain acceptance from peers, even if it meant degrading himself.

It makes me angry that he has no drive to attain "more" out of his life, and throughout all the struggles we went through, he repeats the same mistakes. 

He is beginning to remind me of our father, a sad, and cowardly excuse of a man who walked out on everything.

I tried to be the best role-model for my brother, I was strong, I never doubted in myself and what I did, I was very intelligent, and stood up for who and what I believed in.

So why is he the opposite?

Why is he so weak?

I often forget my place when asked or thinking about religion, I tend to take on a very egotistical and aggressive approach. In such a way that, in hindsight is, corrupting beliefs into facts. In doing so, I become no better than the dogma which I despise, repeating what  is believed by others as "Scientifical fact"

By doing this, I am forced to don the "Burden of Truth" as with any other claim made, religious or otherwise, and I came to the realize that I cannot further substantiate my beliefs anymore so than they can.

Its easy to see the flaws that religion has, and that they're beliefs can be viewed as indoctrinating, corrupt, and just plain silly.

However its just as easy to see an Atheist struggle to disprove religion, in fact, its impossible.

Neither side can claim they are correct, because both sides lack sufficient evidence to support the burdens of truth.

And thats when we must realize that they are both beliefs, and nothing more. We have to accept the reality of this world, and not bicker constantly over such personal and trivial things like beliefs, because doing so will lead us as a species, nowhere.

To close this thought topic, I realized that I was acting no better than the fanatical dogma of the church. As such, I must challenge myself, and strive to become a more intelligent and perceptive person.